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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 07:26

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

How do I stop someone from forcing/pestering me to become gay/bisexual when I already want to be straight?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But it wasn’t much.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

(And it was in our own minds.)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im still living with it.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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But, we were locked up after school.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why are white women so overly emotional?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why am I so wanting to suck a penis?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why do older siblings always hate younger siblings?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

It was going to be , some day.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My family never makes their pension either.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I said to her

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i do to all so called friends.?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Ive learnt so much.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She loved him until the end.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I never cut or harmed myself..

I don,t even have a pension.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was seconnd youngest,

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

One cannot live in the past .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I waited trembling.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We all went to grammer schools

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She found it foreign!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I could never make a relationship work though!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Who then, do I blame.?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

What did i know ?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was scared of men, in general

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I have no regrets .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And i lived it daily.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

This is soul school!.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was very sick at this time too.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Especially a lifetime of it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We were not on the streets..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Put me off passion for life!!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

So, i spoilt her more .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I couldn’t, believe it.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

So whats the point in blame.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I will be 64.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I think the readers, may guess!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was 9 years of age.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He knew the spot.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Would this be the day?

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

When she asked me how she looked .

All the time i was locked up.

She was in good health!

My life is so biszare .

She married twice! .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I write beautiful poetry .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She wouldn,t have been !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Comes on , in middle age.